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DIDNT REALIZE WE COULD UNFRIEND PEOPLE ON THIS LIKE MANY OTHER GROUP THINGS. GUESS IM OVER SENSITIVE AND GET UPSET EASILY AND IN CONTROL OF ONLY MY OWN ACTIONS. BUT HAVE BEEN THROUGH VERY ROUGH TIME EMOTIONALLY AND DIDNT MEAN TO INTENTIONALLY HURT ANYONE. I HATE WHEN PEOPLE DONT LIKE ME. IT MAKES ME FEEL SICK AND NOT NEEDED AND I SO NEED TO GET OVER THIS. YES IM 40 AND ACT AT TIMES LIKE IM 20. MAYBE THATS WHY I DATE PEOPLE SO MUCH YOUNGER THAN ME. CAUSE I HAVENT GROWN UP YET. AND YUP NOT TALKING TO EX MUCH OR THE GIRL WENT ON COUPLE DATES WITH AND ITS SO HARD FOR ME NOT TO BE TEXTING THEM NON STOP. I WANT THEM TO NEED ME OR WANT ME GODDAMMIT. I WANT SOMEONE TO JUST NEED ME AND WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH ME. AND HATE FEELING LIKE THIS. I WANT TO CRAWL BACK INTO BED AND HIDE BUT NOPE GOTTA GO TO WORK AND PUT ON MY HAPPY FACE WITH PEOPLE THAT CANT STAND ME. BLAH BLAH BLAH AND IM BEING UNHEALTHY TEXTING MY SISTERS EX GF ALL DAY LONG. SO THIS IS HOW IM NOT TEXTING THE OTHERS. WE BOTH ADMITTED AN ATTRACTION BUT SAID NOTHING WOULD EVER HAPPEN CAUSE WE RESPECT MY SISTER AND DO HAVE SOME MORALS BUT WHY DO I STILL FEEL WRONG. IS IT WRONG TO HAVE A FRIEND YOU JUST GOOF OFF AND TEXT IF ONLY SOME OF THEM IN APPROPRIATE. IM JUST LONELY AND HUMAN AND HATE THIS.