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had great day with my family yesterday. finally got to see my nieces baby. she is really clueless and i feel really bad. she is far younger than her actual years and i fear for her and the baby but am powerless. actually considered letting them live here if had the room. im very lonely and would like the company. think giving up on the relationship thing for while. my six day workweek starts soon and not really a good time emotionally. maybe one will just fall in my lap if i stop looking so hard. i like the one went on couple dates with but she busy 24-7 and hangs with friends all the time and wont leave her child so ya guess that not happening. i was big girl and didnt text her all weekend and so i didnt hear from her. oh well told her aint ever chasing a woman again although still texting the beast daily. yes i miss the beast want to get her out of my head. shes a selfish beast. wish i could be