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i kinda spoke my mind to the ex the other day and now we r no longer speaking. i had been in house for 5 days due to surgery was feeling sorry for myself and basically told her was hurt she never took the time to stop by, was bullshit she just dumped me at hospital and made me wait hour for her to come get me. cant do this anymore it hurts so much cause i want her back and why cause she was miserable but she was something and in her own way she cared for me. told her i went on couple of dates and sucked cause wasnt her. and now oopsie she aint talking to me. but guess what i havent even tried to talk to her. yup i miss her like crazy but how long can i beg someone and still have any self respect left. she dont want me i get it and i told her that no matter how many times she told me she wants me just not good timing. oops yup i hurt but gotta do it.