feeling better

maybe its the zoloft not really sure but im alot calmer. definately not crying like an ass everyday which is nice. have only seen her once last night in the past 3 weeks. dont really get why im staying. and hoping she will come back. she says she thinks about me alot. that she misses me but im pretty sure shes happier without me. her parents have been gone for the month so the house has been all hers. she spends time just cleaning and going gym and thats about it. shes kinda a miserable little thing. kinda numb no desire to find someone else. works has been hell. got reported to boss that store was a mess and i havent been doing things as well as before so i got extra help. i was so pissed and called boss up she said they were just worried cause im having health issues and they r worried about me. i said its bullshit and they just trying get me in trouble. so yeah been stressed but trying not to be. my kids keep me sane they tell me at work im not easy to talk to at work and they think im bipolar. going to therapist for first time tomorrow. got help her.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m more than glad you are heading for therapy sweet one. But, in the meantime...before and after.. I must say to you.. \"Grab ahold of yourself and your life and take control!!!!\" You are obsessing over someone you have just openly admitted is \'a miserable little thing\'. Hon ~ It\'s TIME to OBSESS about YOU, YOUR life and your Children. Enough!
You are choosing this life. Do you understand this honey? Do you REALLY? You have children who are sponges, watching how you cope with life and one day will begin to show you exactly how they perceived you. Please girl. Please. Stop this. Get your store and life in order.

Consider this yet another very direct, hard bop in the head from someone who know\'s what joy awaits you if you only give it a freakin\' chance.
alijoezack
alijoezack

guess yes im over sensitive but i use this as a venting place because it is a lesbian support group. so thats basically what i talk about but it is definately not what i am all about. i have 3 amazing children who i am very good too and whom i have taught that i am a very caring and honest hardworking person. this is the first person in ten years whom has even enterered their lives because that is the way i have chosen it. i am not a bad mother i am not showing them the wrong way to live. they come first and will always. yes maybe im wrong because they have seen me very upset but that is life im still functioning as a parent should. they eat well go to school and activities. i have been to doctors 8 times in the last 2 weeks so ya that is my major stressor which caused me to fall back a little at work not my gf. and this time of year hell at work anyways cause its a major season change and the whole store changes. so yes my head is not completely up my ass and i probably took your post the wrong way but that is life.