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didnt see her again this week. but she thinks ok saw her last thursday for an hour. she got pissed cause i said tired of being her text buddy. then she got pissed cause for once i ignored her on monday. so she asked what was wrong so i freaking told her. was upset felt like lost other half of me feel like dying sometimes. guess she dont wanna hear it no more. said she trying to figure out where the fuck she wanna go with this and when i do things like that it dont help. she said shes done with me being emotional and wont come over if thats all that gonna happen. i didnt see the women for weeks cause she dont know what she wants i dont talk on the phone to her. and so sorry i got emotional. why do i sit here and wait. she tired of me being hot and cold. im so tired of her being heartless unpasssionate bitch maybe i should tell her that. but wont cause i love her and wont leave for some reason. cause she keeps holding on to me by the balls. now she says we can go to ptown on my vaca for a day. so god help her if i loose a day with my kids and she blows me off. she all sad cause her parents went away but wont talk to me about it god forbid

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'d be so sea sick from this boat ride, I\'d grab a life jacket and jump. I know this is your journey though. All I can do is hope you are coming to the end of it soon.
I\'m looking forward to getting to know the other more happier side of who you are :O)
alijoezack
alijoezack

i really wish i had the strength to end this. i guess cause ive had nobody for so long i just hold on to this. feeling little crazy and sad. dont like the person i have become. so scared to try again and dont understand why if we are so different why wont i just say goodbye and be by myself than stay and be so damn sad all the time.