ugh

im so tired. think i finally ended it and not sure its what i want. i dont want to be alone. dont even know why or what i sent for text messages just was overwhelmed and missing her and so damn angry. i never think about myself and i dont think she ever thinks about anyone but herself. i miss her even when shes with me. shes so depressed and i think im right there with her. think i finally pushed her away cause she def not talking to me. i just told her how i feel and what i want and need and guess she dont wanna hear it cause once again she had a bad night at work. hello you work with criminals im not thinking your gonna sit around painting the ladies nails drinking tea. im just tired and sick of begging and being needy and wanna change myself