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had to the urge to go last night, i was in NYC enjoying my holiday party, red wine and steak and good conversation, i laughed it off, it still takes me by surprise..... its only 4 mths, sure i have many many many days/roads ahead of me, once my mine reset its seratonin levels it went from a fear to something manageable
i seem to think of gambling as a bit of a sad little joke that i have finally gotten, like "ha i remember those stupid days"
who knows.....really other than god, i can talk a good game, and i've seen many 100000billion % say they wont go back and they do
its ok....it really is....i dont live in fear of it anymore if i slip, once i started not to dread it, and realize its just a thought that flies to your mind, no reason to act on it...
going out tonite w/all my friends for the holidays, nice life once you get (it)
i seem to think of gambling as a bit of a sad little joke that i have finally gotten, like "ha i remember those stupid days"
who knows.....really other than god, i can talk a good game, and i've seen many 100000billion % say they wont go back and they do
its ok....it really is....i dont live in fear of it anymore if i slip, once i started not to dread it, and realize its just a thought that flies to your mind, no reason to act on it...
going out tonite w/all my friends for the holidays, nice life once you get (it)
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Way to go! I can\'t wait until I reach the point where I can laugh it off. I am not there yet. Glad you are!
So proud of you! Merry Christmas.