everything is amazing to me, three weeks ago i was in labor now my sweet boy is healing well from surgery...time has flown by, but at times those 3 weeks feel like years. i hardly remember my house, where ive spent so much time n the past.  all that matters is helping Finn. fam and friends have checked n on him. my mom has been amazing and is still here.  all i want is to be in the nicu with him. joel is being wonderful! i couldnt ask for a btter hubs.
Finn is healing really well. the scar is so big, but clean and growing back together as it should.  i got to hold him for the first time since his surgery yesterday, it truely was finn-tastic! it was quite an ordeal to get him to me with all his wires and tubes...but the most wonderful 3 hours as he slept n my arms!
i cant wait to take him home. still no clue how long that will take...depends on chemo among other things.  i just want him healthy and happy. i hurt so bad to see him n so much pain here, his whole face sqishes up and his body turns red. i want to rock and comfort him, but cant even pick him up with 2 people helping.  soon oh soon hopefully we will be home and this will be nothing but a bad dream.
i ask Liam often to watch over Finn, to play n his dreams...i feel comforted imagining that he is...i know he is!