ya know i need to thank all of you out there. when i read your messages and journals i get so encouraged. also so many of you are struggling with your own issues and as bad as that makes me feel it also gives me hope for me and for you. when i am able to encourage or help even one perso it makes my day better. so thankyou for sharing your joys and struggles with me and for letting me be part of your lives. not much happening here. just doing the homeschooling thing and loving my kids but both these things are fun and rewarding. i was asked out the other day and i go out on our first date on monday. i am nervous cause i am really not ready for a relationship but it does feel cool to be asked. i think i will go though, what the heck. the ED is still a struggle everyday but atleast it is managable. soon and very soon i may even be able to surrender it totally to the Lord. he is so good to me and must love me so much to have waited this long for me. he is waiting with open arms for me i just need to go to him. i am like the prodical son who strayed and sinned so badly but when he went back home his dad through a big party for his return. that is how my God is. i have truely screwed up but he is waiting for me to hug me and through a big party for my return. if any of you have strayed away he will do the same for you, i know he will cause i love all of you but he loves you far more than i ever could. sorry, enough preaching. hope all is well for all of you and know that i appreciate each and every one of you. God bless.