i have a positive attitude today about going into treatment but am very scared at the same time. gaining wieght scares me half to death but the way i am going i will be dead and that i don't want. i love my family way to much to hurt them by leaving this earth. the things that scare me most is i won't have my diet pills, my laxitives, and most of all my scle. each and every morning i get up on the scale with nothing on at all. it is a big gamble. with the spin of the dial, i determine the entire days outcome on the number i see. the number is never good enough. if the scale says i wiegh more than the day before, it is enough to send me crawling back into bed. on the days i wiegh less, i feel as if i should have lost even more. my obssession with the scale has definetly gotten out of control. no matter where i go, if there is a scale i wiegh myself even several times a day. i let my scale determine my worth. i know God does not determine my worth by my wieght and after treatment i hope i can too and be able to throuw the scale away. God has a purpose for my life and i am going to fulfill it and honor him. thanks to all of you for the encouragement and support. i love each and everyone of you and am proud to have you as my ds family. everyone please take care of yourself. love yourself as God loves you.
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I know you have children, and you have to be there for them. Force yourself to throw out the scale, and not in a place where you can retrieve it. I threw something out, that needed to be gone, and then I broke down and actually went through all my garbage just to get it. It stunck so bad I could hardly stand it, but I did it anyway. Hang in there. Your friend, Carol
I am soooo proud of you. I know the battle of the scale. I have laptop wherever I go, and booked a condo with free internet (a must) so I hope to hear from you. What a big scary step. Think of you every day. XOXOXOXOXO
You gave very good advice at the end of your e-mail that was very helpful. You take it too. It is good advice. You are right, if you died you would leave many people who would miss you so please don\'t do that. I am glad you are getting help so you can get healthy again. That is nice of you. So thanks for taking care of yourself. Just get better. Love ya.
you will be so proud of yourself for doing this and you are giving your children a wonderful gift by helping their mother get well again
IM SO SO PROUD OF YOU, you are such an inspiration to other ed sufferes out there. Your life is beginning to bloom like your favourite flower on a warm spring morning. You are so courageous. You are facing the light. Love you and and I believe in you. This sight proves that you are more than your size or your looks. I dont know what you look like and really I dont care for what your heart is, means more to me and does more for me and my life than any form of matter can. REMEMBER THIS. THIS SITE PROVES YOU ARE SO MUCH MORE THAN YOUR WEIGHT. SO many of us love you, care for you and warm to you because YOU ARE YOU =)