i have been trying to find some type of treatment for my ed and am desperately seeking to get well. i gain strength by watching others as they plow through thier fears and face themselves. a lot of the time i just want to run away from the pain. i seems like i can't bear the emotional strain, and i just want to give up. i know that there are others who share this feeling. we struggle to encourage eacch other in the midst of our own pain. it hurts me so much to see my friends in agony as they pursue wholeness. i am so afraid of what is under the food obsession and can't seem to give up the external behaviors long enough to look inside. i have been in countless treatment centers, yet i am still focused on food. i have never got past the symptoms to look at the real problems. i have been so encouraged as i see some of you making progress in your recovery. we aren't always doing perfectly, but as we honestly seek to get well the doors of healing will continue to open. good luck to all in your struggles and accomplishments. i love all of you and appreciate you.
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This is definitely a disease that we can\'t beat alone, and I\'ve got nine pounds to prove it. Just like you said, learning from others and getting support, as well as giving support. You\'re an important friend to me. XOXOXOXOXO
It feels like its one step forward two steps back. Its hard work and I know what you mean about giving up. I keep fighting to keep going.
I guess you could say that the problem i have when it can to eatting is that i dont stop a times. I know that this is why i have health problems too. A book that i have been reading that i have found has helped me with the emotional and passed issues that i know i have and the ones that i did not want to deal with in the pass but i did, because of this book. The title is Emotional Fitness - Discovering our natural healing power by janice Berger. She is a local Auther that has that book publisher with Penguin Book. I am not sure you can get in the US or not. I would recommen it. Its $25.00 CDN but it is well worth it. If you can\'t find it i can send you am if you want to brower it. Well that is all for now TTYL.
Don\'t think about giving up, your beautiful children love you unconditionally and I\'m sure they absolutely love having you around. I feel a huge sense of strength in you and feel you pull thru this hard time. You are very much appreciated also :)
its so hard to keep fighting and each minute can be a struggle, but dont give up on urself..i am glad u are looking into treatment.