the sun is out today so that helps the mood. i am mad that larry has to work this afternoon. there are so many times in my life that i don't know which way to turn. i make myself crazy trying to decide exactly what to do. if i allow them to, the choices in my life would swamp me and they sometimes do. like: do i work or stay home, am i thin enough, what should i eat today, can i trust the professionals and what they are telling me, do i need to enter treatment for my eating disorder, are my parenting skills good enough, am i damaging my kids, am i hurting larry beyond repair, how much more can i put my family through? life is full of questions and choices and i feel inadequate to do what is best. i need help and direction for my life. but i have to learn to trust and be honest. i wish you all a good day and good luck on the choices you make today.