Wow it's been three years since I last wrote a journal or even visited this site.  A lot has happened since then but won't go into much detail at this point.  I have had a bad week my best friend who died in 2004 her husband and new wife have left to go to another state far away.  This was very sudden and I was never allowed to say goodbye to them.  I feel like not only have I lost my Best Friend but have now lost my God children.  God I miss them so much.  I feel like I have let my best friend down I have failed my duty that she had asked me to do.  Feeling lonely, sad, and very hurt.  I know I'll get through this but it's so hard…