Oh, My Dear Father In Heaven.
How do I cope with all the changes? How to I go from one day to the next? I just don't feel like I can keep up.Pulmonary Anurisms, End Stage, 21 day in house respratory rehab in Los Angeles, This test, that test. This week no make that STAT! I feel like the world is moving at warp speed around me and I am standing still. My head is spinning, I am scared. I am not sure I understand what they are saying. Or is it what they are not saying? What does this mean END STAGE? Oh, I know what it means but what does it mean. Can't we stop it. Call a Halt to this crazy ride. I DON"T WANT TO PLAY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to take my marbles and go home!! 21 days in Los Angeles. That is 3 hours away!!! I don't want him 3 hours away. What if something happens? It will take me at least 3 hours to get there. At certain times it could take me 5 or 6 hours because of traffic. I haven't driven in LA in 33 years! Please stop this crazy thing!!!!!!!!
Medical disability, Now later? Can we financially do that? Do we have a choice?
The only thing I know, The only thing I understand is I want My husband, My Sundown, My Funny Dancing Bear here for as long a medically possible. But above all I do NOT want him to suffer in any way. I love him with all that is in me.
How do I cope with all the changes? How to I go from one day to the next? I just don't feel like I can keep up.Pulmonary Anurisms, End Stage, 21 day in house respratory rehab in Los Angeles, This test, that test. This week no make that STAT! I feel like the world is moving at warp speed around me and I am standing still. My head is spinning, I am scared. I am not sure I understand what they are saying. Or is it what they are not saying? What does this mean END STAGE? Oh, I know what it means but what does it mean. Can't we stop it. Call a Halt to this crazy ride. I DON"T WANT TO PLAY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to take my marbles and go home!! 21 days in Los Angeles. That is 3 hours away!!! I don't want him 3 hours away. What if something happens? It will take me at least 3 hours to get there. At certain times it could take me 5 or 6 hours because of traffic. I haven't driven in LA in 33 years! Please stop this crazy thing!!!!!!!!
Medical disability, Now later? Can we financially do that? Do we have a choice?
The only thing I know, The only thing I understand is I want My husband, My Sundown, My Funny Dancing Bear here for as long a medically possible. But above all I do NOT want him to suffer in any way. I love him with all that is in me.
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