Oh, My Dear Father In Heaven. 
  How do I cope with all the changes? How to I go from one day to the next?  I just don't feel like I can keep up.Pulmonary Anurisms, End Stage, 21 day in house respratory rehab in Los Angeles, This test, that test. This week no make that STAT!  I feel like the world is moving at warp speed around me and I am standing still.  My head is spinning, I am scared.  I am not sure I understand what they are saying. Or is it what they are not saying?  What does this mean END STAGE?  Oh, I know what it means but what does it mean.  Can't we stop it.  Call a Halt to this crazy ride.  I DON"T WANT TO PLAY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I want to take my marbles and go home!!  21 days in Los Angeles.  That is 3 hours away!!!  I don't want him 3 hours away.  What if something happens?  It will take me at least 3 hours to get there. At certain times it could take me 5 or 6 hours because of traffic. I haven't driven in LA in 33 years! Please stop this crazy thing!!!!!!!!
   Medical disability, Now later? Can we financially do that? Do we have a choice?
   The only thing I know, The only thing I understand is I want My husband, My Sundown, My Funny Dancing Bear here for as long a medically possible. But above all I do NOT want him to suffer in any way.  I love him with all that is in me.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Elsie Darling, you are in my prayers, God is hearing you, I am really feeling for you.
Love.
James
deleted_user
deleted_user

Elsie I am so sorry you are going through all of this. I will keep you in my thoughts, prayers and close in my heart. Hugs, Kati
Janiefp
Janiefp

Elsie, I wish we were not miles apart or I would come give you a Hug and hold you. I am so sorry. I feel so helpless and wish there was more I could do. I do know how to pray though and that is what I am going to do!!
MayberryDeb
MayberryDeb

Awww my sweet,sweet friend. I am so sorry you and Den are going thru this. Keep your faith in sight at all times..God does not give us anything we can\'t handle..we may not want to do it but He will be beside us. ..and so will good friends. I love you.
sambod
sambod

oh elsie. i am so sorry you and Dennis are going thru this. many prayers to you sweetie. we are all here for you.
deleted_user
deleted_user

so sorry your going though this, know that you are thought about and well wishes sent your way!
lucindamartinez
lucindamartinez

Hugs to you Elsie....and God always hear when his Children cry out to Him...always.
deleted_user
deleted_user

So very sorry you guys are going thry these health problems.
Dejablu
Dejablu

My God Elsie I had no idea but I haven\'t been in DS for a while sweetheart. God can make a way where there seems to be no way. Hold fast to your faith and trust God for everything. You are in my prayers dear friend.