I did it!

I made it through one whole day without crying! FINALLY!
 
I don't know how I did it, I just kept doing things, I never stopped, I haven't relaxed at all, but I just kept going.
 
I made a list of things I needed to get done- like pay bills I hadn't had energy to pay for a week or so and cleaning, and things like that. And a list of things I could do or want to do. I didn't let myself stop, I just kept going, I didn't check a lot off the lists but I feel like it helped me focus on things I could be doing, with options so if I didn't feel like doing it, I didn't have to, but I HAD to do something else on the list.
 
I still have this burning feeling in my throat almost all of the time that is just trying to cry, and I know it is going to happen with any weird moment, something totally strange will set it off.
 
Regardless, here's to me being positive at the moment.