Sorry that I have not been around for a while.  Been dealing with alot of issues lately.  MS is kicking my tail, optic neuritis in right eye (my only good one) and spasticity in my hands and feet.  I've been in fairly constant pain. My wife and I are just not meshing, I don't think she wants to be in this marriage anymore.  She is so distant from me.  I told her that she treats me as if we were just house mates and not a husband.  I told her that she has to start showing me some sign of affection, love, caring, but all she could say was that she'll have to think about it.  That was months ago and nothing has changed.  It would not surprise me if she threw me out and demanded a divorce.  All this when I need her so much, she is simply not there for me at all. Money has gotten so tight, we cannot go on much longer.  My lawyer says that it may be another six to eight months before my hearing on disability.  By then it really will not matter.  Why does our government feel it has to totally bankrupt someone in their greatest time of need?  I feel terrible for my kids bacause they don't understand.  I feel so worthless, I'm supposed to provide for them, but all I am doing is dragging them down with me.  I see no end in site, all seems hopeless. To top it off, last night as I was getting ready for bed, I realized my wedding ring was missing off of my hand.  My hands have been so numb lately that I didn't notice that it had slipped off my finger.  It could be anywhere and I haven't found it yet.  I'm afraid it's gone for good.  I am devastated! I've tried pressing the "Esc" button on my life but that didn't help, maybe I'll try Ctrl, Alt, Delete and see what happens.