I am going to take my mom to the doctor this morning so I won't be on for a while.  She is still having trouble with her digestion, can't eat anything.  She has lost 15 pounds in the last month.  She still has the t-tube and drainage bag in place and we empty that bag 4-5 times a day, nothing but bile fluid, don't know if that is normal or if it is causing her problems.  It just really worries me.  She seems to be losing her joy for life and a will to live.  Please say prayers for her.All of this is starting to wear me down, before MS, this would have been no problem, but now stress like this just gets the best of me.  I can't help her physically as much as others and emotionally I am just not there.  The boys need me but I am just too stressed and exhausted and so instead of being there for them I just get angry at them and their needs.  Mo is working her butt off trying to pay the bills and can do no more.  Bills are due and there is no money to pay them.  All I want to do is crawl back in bed and sleep, but I can't.  There's too much to get done and not enough of the  "old me" to do it.  So I will struggle on.  HELP!