Wow, went to a specialist this morning. He was some sort of "rehabiltation and developement" doc. He was a neurophychologist. I have never been so uncomfortable with anyone in my life. We were interrupted at least 10 times in one hour by phone calls, cell phones or secretaries knocking on the door. Talk about feeling like someone is paying you not the least little bit of attention but is charging you a shit load of money. What line do I get in to get a job like that? I felt like I was being interogated by the CIA. He made me feel like I was lying to him or I was just complaining about nothing at all, that I was just a big complainer. Of course, I got the typical "do you want to kill yourself?" and "do you wish that you never existed?" questions. For Pete's sake, I'm having trouble remembering things and staying focused after 15 years of brain damage from MS, I'm not crazy for crying out loud! He pulled up my latest MRI and said "oh yeah, you've got fairly extensive brain lesions. No shit, Sherlock! After an hour of this he said that I needed to come back for further testing. Why??? I can't remember my co-workers names. I can't remember what I went to the store to buy. I forget to stop at red lights, sometimes. What are more tests by this bozo going to tell anyone. I know what it's going to tell them right now, without another dime, that I don't have, out of my pocket. I have severe lesion scarring in all parts of my brain.!
Sorry folks, I just had to rant a little bit. Self important ass holes like this doc today just piss me off! Its bad enough that I have a disease that is slowly stealing my life away from me, but I don't need someone questioning my honesty or integrity while they charge me 300 bucks an hour.