Dear Panic and Anxiety,First let me start off by saying that I really dont like either of you. I didnt ask you into my life, but yet here you are calling alot of the shots for me. I keep you at bay as much as possible. But then boom you are back, with a vengence.Dont you know I am the one that everyone thinks has it all together??? Dont you know that you are ruining my reputation??? I feel helpless and weak when you are around. I have never let anything control me, yet you have such a hold on me, I am at your mercy sometimes.I have children and they dont need to meet the likes of you. They deserve a good life. Not a life that we have to work around you. We are going to probably cancel our trip to Kennywood this week-end, because I am afraid that I cant handle a day like that right now. They are 10 and 8, they deserve to have fun one last time this summer. Please just go away and leave me alone. I have talked to counselors. I have taken medicine. I have changed my diet. All because of you. What more do you want from me?????Anxiety and panic you both MUST go. I am done with both of you.JUlieI have not lost my mind everyone. Had to come home early from work today. First time in a while for that. This is what I would say if anxiety and panic were people and I could address them!!!!!!My symptoms today were scary. Got waves of what I guess is adrenaline. I felt like I was on a roller coaster going down a big hill. That tickle feeling in your belly. Short of breath a little. Tingeling in my face and arms. Got dizzy as well. Just couldnt keep this under control, so I had to come home. That makes me feel like a failure. Took a Xanax, and now feel a little loopy, but still have the headache, and naseau. Just tell me this sounds like panic, that I dont have a blood clot, or am having a stroke. I really need to hear that right now. I am home alone. That is the worst thing for me when I have these episodes. But my husband can't (won't) come home. But I wll get through this right??? I always do, it just sucks while it is happenig./Anyone else get the waves in you belly feeling??? Or the feeling that your head might explode????Thanks for all the support ahead of timeHugs Julie
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Of course you\'ve not lost your mind! I write to my anxiety and panic in the journal I keep at home--I always refer to mine as \"Mr. Anxiety.\" I\'m just pleased to know others do the same! The symptoms you describe are exactly what I face with panic attacks, and I totally relate. And you\'re right. It thoroughly sucks. Try to hang in there, ok?
HI hun,no you are not lost your mind!! I understand it so very well.I do not keep a journal,but i keep up when i have panic attack.So when i go to see my doctor i can tell him how long,where i was at,and what stress if any i was under.I have been panic attack free for 8 weeks,but that was broken the other night.Your symptoms sounds just like a panic attack to me.I have a feeling that goes all the way thru me at times.I know how hard it is.You didn\'t say what dose of xanax you are taking? I have had to leave work because of them myseft,and i even have had them in my sleep.Yes,you are having a panic attack,and i agree with you,i wish i never had one in my life,but i do and i try my best to keep them at bay.You try and hang in there hun.I pray you get to feeling better with them.I know what it is like to have a child and can\'t go anywhere because of my panic attacks.There are no good panic attacks.Try and stay calm as you can and keep your mind off them,and do some praying.It helps me.Love,Shea.......................
Wow, what a great idea! I love the concept of addressing your foes like they were real people. It is such a pain to have this constant attacker with a face. I think I will try that soon.
I have that tickle in my belly that you mention about 20 times every day. I am trying ativan right now for it, my latest drug, have only taken it once.
If you can\'t handle what you planned for the kids, come up with a project you can do together at home instead. They will be happy just to spend time with you, and more so if you are happy too.
take care
Sharon