Here is an update. its been 2 months i believe since i was last on here.
i havent been useing my ativian as much when i have panic attacks. not by choice more like i just never have any.  if i am at my boyfriends place and have one i sometimes dont even remember how i got back to sleep, i wake up on the couch. all i know is i did not have ativian. not sure if thats good or bad but to me ...feels good not always remembering.
another update. Me and my boyfriend are looking at townhouses together. im scared and excited to move out if it happends. long as i have my doggie i should make it :)
im still in the same job iv had for 3 years and i love it, but i am ready to get back into school. a woman is payin me to train resuce dogs so they have an easyer time getting homes. so far its going well.
i am very much in love with my boyfriend we have been together almost 4 months.  fast to move in i know. though sometimes i can say , guys...are annnnooyying lol.
but thats it for now..xoxoxoxox
thanks everyone for reading
love jackie