12-18-14
Ok, I have another profile on here but got a new email address, lost password, so I am just starting a fresh profile.
My life is good and getting better everyday, but I am going through divorce.
I wake some mornings and wonder and yearn for my ex to come to a realization of what he did wrong. He did bad things. Why doesn't he ever wake up and say, "Wow, I was doing bad things, what was I thinking?"
I went to counseling yesterday and was talking about how when my husband cut me off from money last year, he also cut off our child. When he choose to make me do without, he was also making our child do without.
Why would someone do that? I ask myself this today. Why? Why when he makes a good living and makes lots of money, why would he cut me off and let us do without? Ruin my credit, having the fear of our electricity being cut off, not paying bills, having me being sent to collections? WHy? All in order to save a buck? Why wasn't our family worth providing for?
I work two jobs now, and I am grateful, and thankful. Not having time for personal stuff is no big deal to me. I get joy from being able to do for my son, and provide, and I get fullfillment from doing responsibilities. I tell my kid that i am here to see to his needs, every need. Anything financial or otherwise. I do what I gotta do, and I'm lucky to have the health and caffeine needed in order to get shit done.
I get sad though. My husband gave us up in order to not do these things. He was feeling entitled to not have to support us, he felt it was his right to emotionally batter me, he even hit me a few times this past year. And he believes this is his right, he is entitled to be this way.
Why?
Why didn't he love us?
My life is good and getting better everyday, but I am going through divorce.
I wake some mornings and wonder and yearn for my ex to come to a realization of what he did wrong. He did bad things. Why doesn't he ever wake up and say, "Wow, I was doing bad things, what was I thinking?"
I went to counseling yesterday and was talking about how when my husband cut me off from money last year, he also cut off our child. When he choose to make me do without, he was also making our child do without.
Why would someone do that? I ask myself this today. Why? Why when he makes a good living and makes lots of money, why would he cut me off and let us do without? Ruin my credit, having the fear of our electricity being cut off, not paying bills, having me being sent to collections? WHy? All in order to save a buck? Why wasn't our family worth providing for?
I work two jobs now, and I am grateful, and thankful. Not having time for personal stuff is no big deal to me. I get joy from being able to do for my son, and provide, and I get fullfillment from doing responsibilities. I tell my kid that i am here to see to his needs, every need. Anything financial or otherwise. I do what I gotta do, and I'm lucky to have the health and caffeine needed in order to get shit done.
I get sad though. My husband gave us up in order to not do these things. He was feeling entitled to not have to support us, he felt it was his right to emotionally batter me, he even hit me a few times this past year. And he believes this is his right, he is entitled to be this way.
Why?
Why didn't he love us?
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Also, he feels hurt that my opionion of him and his activities are bad. He does things morally and ethically wrong to us. THen he feels betrayed when I don\'t approve? Why do this to me? What did I do to be treated this way?