Thank you friends for the hugs, they mean a lot right now!
updates:  today is our 24th anniversary, we're having a quiet little dinner by the pool.
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Dad fell again Thursday night at the nursing home, still haven't heard much about what injuries other than a goose egg on his head.  Apparently he didn't want to wait for the aides to help him transfer from wheelchair to bed, and down he went.  I know they took him to the ER Friday morning because they noticed his responses were off at PT that morning (but WTF - why did they wait so long to get him checked out?)
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I think Janie is still mad at me, she hasn't called in days.  Actually I prefer the silence if she's just going to crab at me.
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Made an appointment to see a therapist next week.  It's been a few years since I visited with my last therapist, can't see him now because he's retired since then.  I've resisted looking into medication, but I might actually consider it now... this isn't going to get any easier and I'll need to be able to function.  Hopefully they'll look at strategies I can use before having to resort to pharmaceuticals.
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Something is going on with my parents' septic system.  How do I know this from 600 miles away?  No, it's not that the smell is THAT bad...
... I got a phone call from a real estate agent in my parents' area code, and I'm thinking "what kind of VULTURE is circling around this situation and how the f*** did they get my number???"
Seems that the neighbor, who is selling their property, was too timid to talk directly to my Mother (a little old lady who can barely walk), so they asked their real estate agent to talk to me to talk to her about a possible leak/leaching problem that is oozing over into the neighbor's driveway.
Now, when I have playground duty and the little ones come up to me and say, "he was doing this..." I usually ask them what they did first to solve the problem.  "Did you tell him it was bothering you?"  And if they've done everything they know how to do on their own and are still stuck I'll intervene.
Why do I feel like I'm back on the playground again?
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Dinner's ready.  It's a lovely summer day, the AC works, and there's ice cream for dessert.
Breathing, breathing, breathing.  And thank you again dear friends for the hugs!

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Hmm yeah, I agree they should have checked him sooner! I\'m not a doctor though so maybe there\'s an interval before things would actually show up on a test?
I\'m glad to see you haven\'t lost your sense of humor--or your sense of smell!
I often find Life to be something akin to a playground, and I think your generosity of spirit (meaning you don\'t tell the wee ones to fuck off) makes other personalities (perhaps the small minded ones) more likely to seek you out as a fair and impartial advocate.
Lastly, I like the idea of being thankful for little things...AC, ice cream, and no phones ringing!
colored-cheerios
colored-cheerios

24 years ... how wonderful ... I hope you had a wonderful dinner. I am hoping your sister is taking time to find support in her community and the drop in center. Maybe she is ... I hope so. Wonder how the real estate agent got your number .. hummm. Sorry to hear your dad is having such a hard time. Hugging you tightly