oh gawd.  can't sleep.  haunted by the 5th grade angst I don't know how to cure, wonder if I'll be able to help them be less miserable before the year ends.  not enough exercise this weekend, really feeling it at the moment because I can't go to sleep.   all that energy spinning around in my brain, feeling tortured by everything I can't solve.  feel old, inadequate.  knee still hurts.  diet out of whack.  16 years to retirement and I am thinking I wish I could this year... do I have the emotional stamina to do this 16 more years? and if not, then what the **** do I do for a career, and how do I make that switch... and how do I catch up on the back taxes, while I'm at it. my whole life needs an overhaul.  why oh why can't I let it all go tonight so I can go to sleep?