Do you ever get that feeling "I shouldn't get out of bed today" and you do anyway, and by the end of the day you totally regret your decision???
I was supposed to buy a car today - but I called the guy and he says it has a oil leak. So, he has to get that fixed first and throw $300 on the price of the car for that. And he thinks the mechanic I want to take it to will find tons wrong with it. I only have $2K, chances of finding anything for that aren't good. And I have no income, so I can't take out a loan. Wouldn't want to. So, I gave up on that and when to PHP today. I made it in time, but I had to jump in the car as soon as I got off the phone with the car guy.
PHP was okay. I like the group therapist, and I saw my individual therapist today, too. Then I get home, and the letter from SSA has finally arrived! DENIED. Ya know, that's cool, I knew that was likely to happen, I'll jump through their hoops and do the appeal. But I hadn't realized what they would say in the letter. They make it sound like all I gotta do is follow doctors orders and I can find a new job that I can handle with my set of symptoms. Makes me angry!!!
But - a) I can't stand for long, so that knocks out retail, b) when my anxiety gets high (daily) I can't concentrate - knocks out desk jobs c) can't be awake longer than 6 hours before I start falling down - knocks out any full-time job. d) And can't handle stress - knocks out any job involving PEOPLE.
AARGH
I was supposed to buy a car today - but I called the guy and he says it has a oil leak. So, he has to get that fixed first and throw $300 on the price of the car for that. And he thinks the mechanic I want to take it to will find tons wrong with it. I only have $2K, chances of finding anything for that aren't good. And I have no income, so I can't take out a loan. Wouldn't want to. So, I gave up on that and when to PHP today. I made it in time, but I had to jump in the car as soon as I got off the phone with the car guy.
PHP was okay. I like the group therapist, and I saw my individual therapist today, too. Then I get home, and the letter from SSA has finally arrived! DENIED. Ya know, that's cool, I knew that was likely to happen, I'll jump through their hoops and do the appeal. But I hadn't realized what they would say in the letter. They make it sound like all I gotta do is follow doctors orders and I can find a new job that I can handle with my set of symptoms. Makes me angry!!!
But - a) I can't stand for long, so that knocks out retail, b) when my anxiety gets high (daily) I can't concentrate - knocks out desk jobs c) can't be awake longer than 6 hours before I start falling down - knocks out any full-time job. d) And can't handle stress - knocks out any job involving PEOPLE.
AARGH
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