Do you ever get that feeling "I shouldn't get out of bed today" and you do anyway, and by the end of the day you totally regret your decision???
I was supposed to buy a car today - but I called the guy and he says it has a oil leak. So, he has to get that fixed first and throw $300 on the price of the car for that. And he thinks the mechanic I want to take it to will find tons wrong with it. I only have $2K, chances of finding anything for that aren't good. And I have no income, so I can't take out a loan. Wouldn't want to. So, I gave up on that and when to PHP today. I made it in time, but I had to jump in the car as soon as I got off the phone with the car guy.
PHP was okay. I like the group therapist, and I saw my individual therapist today, too. Then I get home, and the letter from SSA has finally arrived! DENIED. Ya know, that's cool, I knew that was likely to happen, I'll jump through their hoops and do the appeal. But I hadn't realized what they would say in the letter. They make it sound like all I gotta do is follow doctors orders and I can find a new job that I can handle with my set of symptoms. Makes me angry!!!
But - a) I can't stand for long, so that knocks out retail, b) when my anxiety gets high (daily) I can't concentrate - knocks out desk jobs c) can't be awake longer than 6 hours before I start falling down - knocks out any full-time job. d) And can't handle stress - knocks out any job involving PEOPLE.
AARGH
I was supposed to buy a car today - but I called the guy and he says it has a oil leak. So, he has to get that fixed first and throw $300 on the price of the car for that. And he thinks the mechanic I want to take it to will find tons wrong with it. I only have $2K, chances of finding anything for that aren't good. And I have no income, so I can't take out a loan. Wouldn't want to. So, I gave up on that and when to PHP today. I made it in time, but I had to jump in the car as soon as I got off the phone with the car guy.
PHP was okay. I like the group therapist, and I saw my individual therapist today, too. Then I get home, and the letter from SSA has finally arrived! DENIED. Ya know, that's cool, I knew that was likely to happen, I'll jump through their hoops and do the appeal. But I hadn't realized what they would say in the letter. They make it sound like all I gotta do is follow doctors orders and I can find a new job that I can handle with my set of symptoms. Makes me angry!!!
But - a) I can't stand for long, so that knocks out retail, b) when my anxiety gets high (daily) I can't concentrate - knocks out desk jobs c) can't be awake longer than 6 hours before I start falling down - knocks out any full-time job. d) And can't handle stress - knocks out any job involving PEOPLE.
AARGH
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Focus on the good! Write down 10 things you would like to have in your life. Really tink about what you want and write them as neat as you can, take pride in writing them on a nice piece of paper (something pretty if you have it). Tape it on your mirror and read it out loud every morning. Also be careful of the words you say. Our words create what we get. God created the whole universe and everything in it in 6 days, with His words. Your days will get better.
Bless You!
Forget about any car with an oil leak. We have one of those, and my husband is a part time mechanic and can\'t fix it. It just keeps coming back. I hope this group therapy helps for you.
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