Tired

I'm tired today. I found out that our new insurance won't cover the next fertility treatment. I've hit a wall. Sad. Don't know what step to take next. Sorry, don't see any windows open... just closed doors. And getting a little tired of picking myself, dusting myself off and having to pick myself up again. 
I guess I'm getting tired of being positive and patient. The last few months have been a struggle at times. Too much going on.... still grieving my dad, graduate classes and work. Don't know what to do about the infertility issue. Don't want people to tell me that "things happen for a reason." I know that and maybe one day I will see that... but today it hurts. I'm getting so, so, so tired of always trying to improve myself and become a better person and improve my circumstances. I've worked so hard. I've really tried, but I'm just tired.