Today
Today, Yesterday and I know tomorrow.....I WISH KENNY WAS NOT DEAD..........
I HATE IT!!! I Hate the thoughts!!! I hate knowing I can't go visit him!!!!
I hate I can't call him.....I hate being one of the MOMS!!!
I LOVE YOU KENNY, MOM
I really really really with all my HEART...really hate that my son is no longer living!!
Forever....I will hate this!!!!! I just want my Kenny back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Miss you, love you, want you, want hugs, want kisses......I don't know why,,,,I just
know I want you back with us.....forever your mom.....I LOVE YOU, KENNY, MOM
I WISH I COULD SCREAM IT OUT TO THE WORLD....I WISH THAT THE WORLD
KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU SON....HOW UNFAIR....I WANT THE WORLD TO
KNOW THAT I DIED WHEN YOU TOOK YOUR LAST BREATH.....I LOVE YOU KENNY, MOM
I HATE IT!!! I Hate the thoughts!!! I hate knowing I can't go visit him!!!!
I hate I can't call him.....I hate being one of the MOMS!!!
I LOVE YOU KENNY, MOM
I really really really with all my HEART...really hate that my son is no longer living!!
Forever....I will hate this!!!!! I just want my Kenny back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Miss you, love you, want you, want hugs, want kisses......I don't know why,,,,I just
know I want you back with us.....forever your mom.....I LOVE YOU, KENNY, MOM
I WISH I COULD SCREAM IT OUT TO THE WORLD....I WISH THAT THE WORLD
KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU SON....HOW UNFAIR....I WANT THE WORLD TO
KNOW THAT I DIED WHEN YOU TOOK YOUR LAST BREATH.....I LOVE YOU KENNY, MOM
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This is how we all feel. I wish Jason was not dead, I wish it so hard and don\'t want to think that he\'s gone. Go ahead and scream it, I know I have. I do wish you peace in your heart but I understand how this feels...Sending you Love and you know that Kenny loves you and wants you to find peace. Terry
so very for your pain, I understand how you feel. I never dreamed I would be one of the moms. my heart and love go out to you and I pray all of our pain becomes bearable.I wan\'t my sweet Ryan back but no amount of praying is going to help. If you need to talk I\'m here as I could also use support thru this horrible nightmare. with hugs and love, Marcia
Sandi,
I swear that your journal entries are \"God Inspired.\" Sometimes I just can\'t comment because they are almost too close to my heart. This one was \"primal\" and took my breath away.
Leda
Ialso hate it that Jenn is no longer with me (I HATE the word DEAD) that I can\'t call her, talk to her, hold her...
MaryLou
Sandi: My heart breaks for you and for all of us who are living this Hell. I love the rest of the family but losing Lisa was like having my heart ripped out.
Big hugs,
Marlene
I know, Sandi. This is such a cruel reality for all of us. I understand. I am changed forever and yes, I feel like a piece of me died when Eddie passed away on that terrible day. Tight, tight hugs and so much understanding, Linda
I know how hard this altered journey we all must now take.. Sending you hugs and support through this difficult night Hugs Wendy
Your reading my mind ....It is so frustrating there is nothing I can do to bring my Chris back, why him, why our kids. WHY !!!! It\'s just not fair ......Take a pillow put your head in it and scream !! It doesn\'t bring them back but it helps to let it out . ..... Love & many, many HUGS
I think we all feel this way. I Pray we all have the strength to get through this nightmare. Hugs, Susan
i am so sorry for your pain. Hugs!!!
{{HUGS}}
I hate the word \"dead\" too...but we know that is just an earthly term for being out of the body. No one wants to one of the MOMS...it is a sad place to be. I hear the pain in your words and the ache and longing for a son that is not here but is away for an extended stay in the most awesome place that every mother wishes for her child. I am hugging you and thinking of you dear friend....love, dale...brandon\'s mom
Sending you a hug and understanding your pain. Love, Kim
I feel and understand your pain my friend love to you
Can we change the word dead? Like we all hate it, it is very hard to say, think about or comprehend.
Let it all out, get something and throw it, beat up your pillow, take your pain out on something they have a good cry. Lean on us we will help.
BIG BEAR HUG Penny