Dreams

They say that dreams of our children will come more easy to us when our minds are not so full of pain like after their death and for how long it takes to where is are not totally focused on our loss,,,,the death,,,,our bodies screaming for just something, something that will bring us peace of mind...I am thankful that I had no bad dreams of Ken about his illness or if I did I did not remember any...other than for months after Ken passed I would wake up with total body sweats and a smell that was so strong .....those times I felt I was probably dreaming of the bad times in the hospital with Ken leading up to his death...the so many times it got to where we thought we were losing him...the infections...Funny on one could smell the smells that I had, but it would be like  my whole body....If it had been a pleasant smell then I would not have minded....but these smells were just reminders of he was dying.
I have had 2 vivid dreams of Ken...on in the very beginning, I was dreaming that he and I was walking down a pathway with tall swaying green pastures on both side of us and we were just happy and smiling.
The second was the one I just shared about the big glasses...and Ken having a smile on him face and raised up out of his chair and said This is the best I have seen ever and then he just disappeared.
The other dream is of him in my hospital for three nights after my surgery...
The main thing I remember about my dreams is....The Smile on his face....Peaceful, happy, at peace smile....that is the best part of the dreams....The Peaceful Smiles.
 
Hoping all of you get a beautiful peaceful dream from your child....I would love one every night, but maybe he is busy doing God work....but I cherish each one of the dreams I have....
May we all have wonderful dreams, for those who still are waiting may their dreams of their child come soon...It does give some feeling of peace......
Come in my dreams again Ken any night any time you can.  Love...mom