I guess I have to come to realization that I was naive. I truely thought that there was such things as soul mates and ture love. I truely thought that if I was the love of his life like he kept saying I was he would never cheat on me. I truely thought that our love was enough to protect our relationship. I wonder if he did really love me when he started the A. It was around our 25th ann. and I went all out to show him how much I loved him and how I wanted to grow old with him. I even had my daughter sing a song from me to him by john Lemmon "Grow Old Along With Me'. I don't feel the same way now. I used be OK with getting older but now it is making me anxious and worried. My daughter just found out she is pregnant and I will be a grandmother. My H keeps telling me he loves me but is it enough now? Why wasn't it enough before? What else do we need to grow old together? Repect? We are communicating better now, is that enough? This has shaken me a lot. What can I believe in now, our love? our commitment?