Bad day

I am having a bad day today.  I feel like I can never love him like I did before.  I thought we were great together and he thought I was special. I guess I wasn't as special to him as I thought.  I hope we can build a different relatonship.  he thinks what we are doing now is great because we are communcating.  I have been trying for years to get him to talk to me and it is great that he is finally doing this but what a cost.  Be carefull what you wish for! I am glad to hear OW is feeling pain as well. I have never hated anyone before.  It is not like me to feel good that a person is feeling bad.  I feel like I have lost something of my self.