it's a new day...  legs feel much better and i'm done with my pity party... i did decide though that it's not so bad to let that happen now and then,  i have been holding everything in so my family doesn't see... really it's not fair to them or me...  i know i won't make a habit of it but to just let myself really feel bad or sad and cry it out sort of clenses me i think...   today is another story and the sun is shining :)