I haven't been here for a while... haven't written in the journal... i also stopped going to my support group...  i think i figured if i just stayed away from PD related things that PD would stay away from me...   wrong... so wrong... i actually cut back on my meds myself thinking i knew better than the doctors... wrong...  so needless to say i've been a mess for a while...more off than on...  and my doc decided to get me off requip and start maripex.. i am having an awful time with it... forgetting my thoughts mid sentence...  achy joints... sooo tired..   i feel like i don't know if all this is from the drug or from the disease...
i've also been drinking...  i know better.. i know that's not gonna help PD... but it puts me in a place i can forget about it...that started to scare me because one wine would turn into two then soon the bottle was gone... and i was home alone...   so now with all my new realizations and some long talks with my doctor i am trying to do the right things... i have been taking my meds the right way thus tired all day and getting nothing done... i am rejoining my support group and i am going to talk to my friends here on this site..
 
Haven't been able to stop crying the last 4 weeks or so...  sometimes there's a reason sometimes just sudden bursts...my doc calls that emotional incontinence...   so .. no i am on an anti depressant...   yet another pill...  i feel like i am a victim to my meds
i hope this anti depressant perks me up and doesn't just add to the tiredness...  my doctor said i need to reduce stress... well right now my life is nothing but stress i wish i knew how to reduce it... 
i'm trying to do the right things i'm trying to stay positive... but i feel like i'm getting beat.