another day

well woke up today feeling no better maybe worse getting alittle scared now of how i am feeling have deciced to go to the doctors for abit more help but am feeling like i am a weak person for asking for help(tablets) it feels like a sign of weakness on my part but then i have relize that i am not a super hero and i want to be around for along time yet,who knows maybe just talking to him might be all the medcine i need hope so plus all my wonderful friends from daily strenght have help me heaps never have i laugh and cryed at the same time maybe a good night sleep is all i need as soon as i try to get some sleep racing thoughts go around and around and it drives me grazy  somehow writting down my problems seem to help too why i dont know my boys and parnter are strating to worry about me cause i am getting angry with them for no reason and i do not want to lose them what a mean ??? i am  but my dog seems to understand cause she keeps coming up to me and gives me kisses all the time my god i would be lost without her and my family so i am going to try real hard to shake this feeling of dread and no pursore for living cause deep down i am sure i am a good person who has just got lost but will get back to were i was which was such a better place but then maybe seeing mum and my baby brother (heaven)  and being with them would be better off no more pain would be good but so confused what should i do  boys and dog and the otherfeel like i am being pulled in two directions one part wants to stay with my family and dog and the other wants to go to mum please god help me as i am trying and not getting anywhere just ranting on and on all i can say please show and help me find my way back home and i wont ask for anythink ever again i

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deleted_user

glad you felling better thers nothing wrong for asking for help thats what the doctors are there for
Brandi24
Brandi24

Never feel ashamed about asking for help.Hang in there your family needs you.