Reflection
I think it's probably a good time now to reflect on my road to recovery to date.
I have been gamble free now for 138 days, 12 hours and 13 minutes (here's a link to a clean calculator site http://www.vancouverga.com/calculator.html).
Recovery so far.....
Day 1One of the worse and best days of my life. Worse day because I was an absolute mess and just thinking about was gambling, the mountain of debt, my mine was all over the place and I kept asking myself the magical question - how am i going to stop a 15+ year addiction. Best day because i decided to stop gambling once and for all.
After a month or soMy head's a little clearer and there is more clarity around what I trying to achieve. I still have plenty of urges, I still think about my mountain of debt however I've put together a plan. The plan has a couple of goals and interests of mine and I start to execute it.
After 2monthsEverything's going well, the urges are getting less and the goals a making some progress however the mind is still a little messed up with ups, downs and inbetweens. Some home truths start really start to hit me like...... the mountain of debt, borden, no partner, how I wasted 15 years of my life gambling and how this has set be back so much and basically ruin my life and now its like starting all over again at 39. Pretty hard stuff to take in and accept but I move on and just stick with the "one day at a time".
After about 4monthsMy head's much more clearer, I pretty much do not think about gambling anymore and can actually see the light and the other end of the tunnel. I am well on the road to reaching certain goals and I am starting to feel a great sense of wellbeing, acheivement and experiencing the life of living life again.
TodayI'm feeling good. Thinking about debt still however its definitely reduced quite a bit over the last 4 or so months. I will reach my goal of being gamble free for 6 months - 44 so days to go and then I will set the goal of being gamble free for one year!
I will continue to work on my goals and achieving them. I will take it one day at a time. I believe that with every day that goes by you learn something new in your recovery whether its small or big. I am feeling good - no longer think about gambling, i am less stressed, i spend more time with my family and friends, i don't have to worry whether i have cash on me anymore, i am more healthy, i have lost weight, i am back into my hobbies and interests, i sleep much better at night, i am more considerate and less anger and moody as you are when you gamble......
The battle is not over by a long shoot but I am definitely on the right track.
Well, that's enough from me!!
I have been gamble free now for 138 days, 12 hours and 13 minutes (here's a link to a clean calculator site http://www.vancouverga.com/calculator.html).
Recovery so far.....
Day 1One of the worse and best days of my life. Worse day because I was an absolute mess and just thinking about was gambling, the mountain of debt, my mine was all over the place and I kept asking myself the magical question - how am i going to stop a 15+ year addiction. Best day because i decided to stop gambling once and for all.
After a month or soMy head's a little clearer and there is more clarity around what I trying to achieve. I still have plenty of urges, I still think about my mountain of debt however I've put together a plan. The plan has a couple of goals and interests of mine and I start to execute it.
After 2monthsEverything's going well, the urges are getting less and the goals a making some progress however the mind is still a little messed up with ups, downs and inbetweens. Some home truths start really start to hit me like...... the mountain of debt, borden, no partner, how I wasted 15 years of my life gambling and how this has set be back so much and basically ruin my life and now its like starting all over again at 39. Pretty hard stuff to take in and accept but I move on and just stick with the "one day at a time".
After about 4monthsMy head's much more clearer, I pretty much do not think about gambling anymore and can actually see the light and the other end of the tunnel. I am well on the road to reaching certain goals and I am starting to feel a great sense of wellbeing, acheivement and experiencing the life of living life again.
TodayI'm feeling good. Thinking about debt still however its definitely reduced quite a bit over the last 4 or so months. I will reach my goal of being gamble free for 6 months - 44 so days to go and then I will set the goal of being gamble free for one year!
I will continue to work on my goals and achieving them. I will take it one day at a time. I believe that with every day that goes by you learn something new in your recovery whether its small or big. I am feeling good - no longer think about gambling, i am less stressed, i spend more time with my family and friends, i don't have to worry whether i have cash on me anymore, i am more healthy, i have lost weight, i am back into my hobbies and interests, i sleep much better at night, i am more considerate and less anger and moody as you are when you gamble......
The battle is not over by a long shoot but I am definitely on the right track.
Well, that's enough from me!!
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