I am so stressed and overwhelmed. It seeme like bad things happen at the worst possible times. I am so depressed. I wish I could just get in bed and never get out for the rest of my life. I hate living right now, but I know my kids need me too much for me to do something stupid. I feel guilty for briging them into such a messed up life. I probly would not have had them if I knew the issues I had before I got pregnant. I love them more than anything. They are the only reason for me to live. I just can't take my life right now. I hate it. I wish I never let myself sink this low. I got myself in a hole so deep that I can't get myself back out.