I am feeling better today. I got my shopping and junk food fix. lol. I was so depressed yesderday that it was scary. Roger an I have been arguing a lot. It's been my fault like always. I know it's my fault, but in the heat of the moment I would never admit it to him. I'm always right, he's always wrong. I know that makes me sound like a bitch. I guess I am sometimes. I love him to death and I want to be with him forever, but I have akways been the type that takes the easy way out. That makes me so temted to leave him, but that would be punishing him for my faults. I am sure we'll get through this down spell. I have been such a bad wife and mom. I feel like I don't care anymore and I just put all the work on him. He is getting stressed from it. The other day he was upset and said, "I don't care if I live or die." Then it hit me, my problems are causing him to be depressed. He would never go to therepy or anything though. He's too stubborn for that. I know that if I never came into his life he would be much better off and he would be happy. The arguing isn't why I was depressed though. I just was.