I am so mad at my mom. She was supposed to keep Joseph til tomorrow, but she wants to go out somewhere. So she's bringing him home. His birthday is tomorrow and I am busting my ass trying to get everything ready for his party. I am not going to be able to do anything with him home. I can't take him to the store, he knocks things over and opens and slams the freezer doors, among other bad things. Then everyone looks at me like, " what a bad mom," or " can't she control her kids. " I hate it! I can't do anything around the house because he is ALWAYS doing something bad. Then if I let him go outside to play (we have a fenced in yard) he sneaks out the gate and trys to run away. We think he has ADHD. He just hasn't been diagnosed yet. I wish I could go out and do something. I am always with the kids. my husband also. We never get to do anything just us. I guess it's my fault. I shouldn't have had kids. I certainly am not a good mom. I get mad too easy. I yell too much. I love getting away from them. I do love them I just hate being a parent sometimes. I know that sounds horrible. I don't deserve my kids.