I am upset because I was talking to and old friend. He reminded me of all the goals I had when I was a teen. I started thinking. I haven't achieved any of them. And the way things are going, I don't think I ever will. I think I messed up my own life and ruined all my plans. When I was younger my mom used to tell me things that I should have listened to and didn't. I thought I knew better. I thought I could have my cake and eat it too. (not like that, lol) Well, I was wrong. She was right. I love my husband and kids, but this is not how I planned my life to be. Yes, I wanted a husband and kids, but not under these circumstances. I didn't want my children to grow up poor and unhappy. I ruined my life and am now well on my way to ruining thiers. What have I gotten myself and my family into? Why am I like this? Why couldn't I have listened to my mom all those years ago? I wish I could go back, but I know it's not possible. Where do I go from here? How can I make things better. Sure, everyone has an answer, but they don't truly understand my situation. They don't know all the feeling I hide deep inside that no one, not even my therepist will ever hear.
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Things will change for the better sooner or later.It just takes time and work.I don\'t know your whole situation but I am sure that it is hard for you because you are so young and I feel for you.I am 45 and there are days when I don\'t want to be a wife or mother and I feel so wrong and guilty to feel that way.I love my family so much but I wish that I did not wait so late in my life to have a child.I wish that I was a young mom.I wish that there was something that I could say to make you feel better.Just know that your husband and kids love you very much.
I\'m a single mom with a livei n boyfriend whom very helpful with our son. I wished I would of listen to my Dad when he was telling me to set goals and live by them and them have a family. I work very very hard rain,sle or snow for my son to have a good life. I just get depressed because I have to wrok entirely to hard which I don\'t mind for him but it\'s just the type of job that I want and I\'m not making enough. We can\'t afford a bigger place right now because the bills we got is taking up much of thie income to matter how much we manage. I want my son to be able to run free and have his own space. I don\'t regret my son at all because he is my Blessing but I do wish I had a better paying job, married,a house and a bank acct with a nice sum. I know I will do what ever I have to do make sure he has a good life and I do pray that I can make chages to mine far as going to school and and getting my training for the feild I want to go in. I just recently had a m/c and I was scared b/c I knew times was hard but I know I had to work even harder b/c I thought I was going to have 2 babies to take care of. But God wasn\'t ready for me to bring my Angel into the world I guess cuz he see the situation I was in. I don\'t know all I do know is I want my life to be better so I can make a way better life for my son and the kids I planned to have if God see fit for me too. I don\'t want to have to worry about how this and that is going to get paid or will have enough to get his and that. I don\'t want to have to worry and I definetly don\'t want my son and future kids to have to worry about anything. So I understand really ido. But you know what sweetie we can\'t go back in time all we can do is move forward and what we can change do it and what we can\'t learn from it. I know it\'s hard but hang in there nad if you need someone to talk to or just listen I\'m here. I know people may tell you things to make you look at a situation diffrently like in a positive light.... but you right they still don\'t know how it feels to be in a situation and you not for sure how to get out of. But I will say this I don\'t have alot of money.... I really don\'t have any money but as long as you kids are feed,has roof over there heads, clothes on their backs then you\'re doing ok. Just take it one step at a time and their are resoureces out there that will help you. I\'m not saying to get on Gov. asst but if that what it takes until things get better then sometimes you have to do what you got to do..... but there are other resoures that can help and if you were to get assistance from the Goverment you don\'t have to depend on it for ever but just until you can do better. My Cousin got assistance until she did better and they helped her buy a house and put her threw school. I hope you don\'t mind the advice. But however I\'m here if you need to talk
Well you may not have a lot of money but I think sometimes the best thing you can do so not let them see that and if they do know, make try to make everything happy for them. Sometimes people stress around Christmas time because they can\'t afford lots of gifts well if they never get spoilded they won\'t expect more and more every year. I guess my point is you won\'t ruin their lives, just let them see the LIGHT in you and when it shines so will they. When did you get married? I got married at 19 and sometimes I feel like I am missing out one what is suppose to be the best years of my life. But it\'s the pass I chose so I live with it and be try to be happy in life. I worry about having children tooo we don\'t have barely any money either.. Heck we are staying with my parents right now... that\'s not exactly \"living\" haha Well take care hun and keep your head up!
No matter how bleak things seem, u cn always improve. Having children & being married, things wont happen as quickly as u wuld like, but it is still possible. My mom was 23 w/ 2 kids & made it workas a single mother. Even if ittakes u 5 yrs 2 get where u want 2 b, wouldnt it b worth it? Ud have the life u wantd all b4 30. Stay positive & b thankful 4 wat u do hav & i know u will gt wat u most desire & dserve