I can't take my life anymore. I want to end it all now so bad. Just when I thought things were going to be better this happends. Someone called childrens services on us. They would show up during one of my down times. My house is a wreck. If we don't get things into shape before they come back I know they will take my kids. My kids are the only thing holding me together right now. If I loose them I swear I am going to kill myself. All this drama has me and my husband fighting. I feel like my kids are the only people who love me right now, since my husbands mad at me. If I loose them I have no reason for living. I know i should be cleaning rihgt now, but I am having a panic attack and I just wanna die.