My mind is in the middle of a depressed state presently....i see little way out of it....i feel badly cuz i think i'm bringin people down around me as well, which i don't want to do...and yet i don't feel like pretending that 'all is well' somehow when it feels otherwise....i suppose feelings may truly come and go like the wind and perhaps that is why i don't like them that much....but nevertheless they do contain a power of some sort....which used to motivate....mine don't do that now....i feel them tho...as they wittle away at my spirit, causing me to isolate and drown from within---pretty pitiful really----i miss the days when they used to motivate my spirit towards a goal or a direction....instead of creating a spiritual vagabond, wandering and lost within a space of entity disintegration.
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I can tell you are really feeling down by this journal. There does not seem to be any hidden meaning or anything in this one like all of your others. I hope you start feeling better soon. Hey, and you are entitled to feel any way that you really are. There is no need to hide your sadness if you do not feel like hiding it.
To thine own self...self-integrity.How can we hope to appraise events if we can\'t remain self-aware?Your honesty will guide you,allow it.You see vagabond as failure?Do you not realize that spirituality does not knock on your door?Wander Harry,wander with every spare minute.Spiritual growth is not an event,and can\'t be captured.Sustenance,not abstinance.Food,water,you said it first.
I agree with both above comments Harry,although I am also guilty of saying I am fine thx...[for same reasons as yourself]till recently when I let it be known I was very down and no matter how hard I tried I could not lift myself up and out of it ...will reply to your msg later today Harry....sending you hugs and cuddles with lots if TLC
love and light
Lorretta
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BTW I really do like the Spiritual Vagabond term you use ....it gives off an air of wanting to just let your spiritual self roam...in the same way we want our physical bodies to roam ...
love and light
Lorretta
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