I FAILED......not much else to say.....can't seem to make it in the body or the mind....screwed up the circuits somehow...i really wonder if there is a G-d....if one CAN'T exist with or without then what?  Am I so different...or just so lost?.....awww hell i'd rather be numb anyway..........maybe now i can get my lazy ass out in the streets for a walk.....yeah.....at least one time....for old times sake.....for wut wuz and wut will never be.....ever again....already paid the price, hah! That's rich....there's a freedom in losing....even desperation and hopelessness has its rewards...wow!!  Imagine that??--    

   ***  Built-in to our circuits, there can be a plus to failure!!  ***

...False promises....Empty expectations....all of that can bring one down I suppose if one feels...if one hasn't been broken by days gone by....i will go out tonight....i don't care if i fall down near the curb i'm going....i'll be back to tell you if i made it though....YES.....Happy to say that i did make it out there for a 47 minute walk.....yeah i'm cool .....with all the ups n downs n all arounds in this entry I hope you're all not gettin dizzy ...

Luv Ya For Listening!!  Down with artifice and self-consciousness!!  Up with Love!!