Today was an interesting day. I found out this morning that my follicle increased to 2.3 from 1.9 yesterday. However my lining only increased to 6 from 5.4. I asked about taking estrogen to thicken the lining, however they told me that it was too late in the cycle for it. Hopefully tomorrow it will increase to 9 and then the IUI can begin. I am hoping that this is the cycle that we concieve on. Then June will not be such a horrible month. In 5 days will be Duane's death anniversary, in 15 days would have been the due date for our first child. I am trying so hard not to get sad or worked up about everything, however it is hard when I watch my parents grieve so deeply for my brother. It is not that I am not greiving, I just need to stay calmer because of the IUI and if it happens, I will need a bit of a stress free environment if we get pregnant. It would be wonderful news to tell my parents on their 40 anniversary that they might be grandparents. Their anniversary falls during what could be my 12th week. I am trying so hard not to have hope, because I do not want to be disappointed. After my m/c we have experience failure after failure. I am not getting any younger and the older I get the further the dream to have a biological child seems to fade.  

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lvnikita
lvnikita

I am praying for you!