Day 2

Second day for IUI and the doctor told us that the sample was a better one than yesterday. I have no idea if it is working etc...I am afraid to feel hopeful or pesimistic. Today in the mail I received an invite for a baby shower...my cousin's wife is having a baby. I am not really close to this cousin, in fact I wrote him off years ago. Then Duane died and my  cousin has acted like everything that has happen before was forgotten...Well I remember! none of her (his wife) family knows about what went on with my cousin and my family, in fact they think that we are bad ones. So I guess I will just send a gift or maybe not that way they will feel slighted and not want anything to do with us and then I can truly have them out of my life.I tried to talk to my mother about the situation but she was a bit busy today so we will talk tonight. I need to feel relax and peaceful for the IUI to work. SO I have to convince myself that i never received the invite and go on my merry little way.