I saw my doctor today and he seems to feel the lump is just a cyst or a keliod scar because it feels familiar. Anyway he decided that I should go the breast clinic and have a byopsy just ot make sure because my mother had breast cancer and he wants to be cautious. I agree...I do not want a mamagram when I know that it is there and they can do a test just to make sure. He has given me some hope that perhaps next month Dan and I can TTC again. I also know why we do not tell ppl that we are pregnant until the 5th month...today a friend dropped by wanting to know our due date. I could not believe that she could not tell that I am not pregnant any more. Then she went on a tirade about kids who need to be saved and needing a good home. It is not that we are against adopting, but I would like to TTC again and give my husband a child that is genetically both of ours. I really need to do this. There are no grandchildren on my side. I do believe that we will have at least one child naturally and we will expand our family by adoption as well. No one really knows what is going happen until it does.I will keep praying and asking God for guidance.