So I thought that I was ok today...but as I sit here and try to take my mind off of things, I am beginning to cry. I am a little angry today..the Novena that a friend sent me because she concieved 5 children using it has not worked on us..then again it is too soon after the m/c to even try. But I guess I was hoping for a miracle. I really need a miracle before I go crazy...I am so sick of feeling this way. One minute fine the next minute crying uncontrolably. I can not say my evening prayers because when I get to the special intentions for parents I really do nto think that I would mean it today and that would be lying to God if I did do it today.I feel like a spoiled child...why can't we get pregnant, why did my baby have to go, why does everyone seem to be having children and we are not...life just sucks today and there is nothing that will make me feel better. Tomorrow i will probably be different but today I just need to feel bad.I can not talk to my friends about how I feel, because they just do not understand. they want to talk about their children and all of the stuff that parents like to talk about. They do not want to hear about sadness, and I know that I can not tell them because then i get the pity look. I am very good at acting like I am over the m/c, but truly I am just dying inside. I can not talk to DH about it, because he still does not seem affected by the loss...or seeing families all around us does not faze him.I just want to leave and go somewhere where people do not know me or will ask any questions. An Island where I can stay in bed and feel miserable...without any expectations to put on a show.