Work was alright today, until I opened an email about someone on staff welcoming their new addition to their family. So here I sit at home crying because my baby is gone and this person has a new one. how come some people are so fertile and others are not. I was feeling so good today. I kept reminding myself to stay focus on work...watching all the pregnant bellies go by, listening to the kids tell me about which teacher is pregnant and what gender the baby is and I was ok to listen without any reactions or saddness. But know that I am home, and it is quiet I am letting the emotion out. I have exams to set and all I want to do is cry. I think that I am PMSing today, which would be a good sign that I am ovulating without assistance. Yippy for that, but I am so sad that I will never have a child. One person at work, who found out that I had miscarried said to me that I could have children other ways....there is a bit of a language barrier, so I did not take this comment offensively because then she added that I am a kind person and that children will happen one day because good things happen to good people. I miss my child...I miss being pregnant...