BAD BAD DAY...So I guess when things seem wonderful and fine, something will come along and ruin it...My father called me today and said to come over now...so I went. as I was driving I kept trying to remain calm because i was thinking that something has happened to my grandmothers. As it turns out, my mother has been diagnosed with breast cancer. This is the second time and I know that she is really sacred...I thought that she was given a clean bill of health years ago...I can not loose her. I have already lost my brother, but I can not loose my mother as well. I am hoping that it has not spread since the doctor did say it was not invasive. I am also hoping that it occured because of stress (loosing my brother), because then we know the cause. I know that I am being selfish when I say...every time things look like we are going to have a baby something stress ful happens. A person today told me that God only gives you what you can handle. So does that mean I can not handle being a mother, so he tries to tell me by making my brother die and my mother have cancer? this year has been difficult for all of us. I still think that I am in a bit of shock hearing about my mother. I was so sure that it was a cyst. I pray that it has not effected her lympnoids.I need to pray now.