June was a wild month. Filled with lots of stress and sadness.  My sister-in-law soon to be ex, does not want my parents any where near the house she onced shared with my brother. She tells my mother that she is getting rid of my brothers stuff. My mother volunteered to go and pick everything up, but SIL does not want her to do that. So then she brings stuff to my parents and they get into a mini arguement about letting Duane go. Everyone deals with grief so differently. IT has been a year, and now we must focus on our grief and helping others go through theirs. I can see each point of view and I do not know how to help. My SIL is getting married this summer and I can understand that she needs to move on and accomodate her new husband and having reminders around of her old husband will not help her marriage. My mother still needs to grieve the lost of her son, and having items around that were his helps with her grieving process. I for one just need one more day with him to discuss anything. Soon our family will get smaller, already one gone and soon one to go to live with another family. It's so sad to think that our relationship with my SIL will come to an end, but I think for all of us, it will not work the same if she tried to accomodate her family, her dead husbands family and now her new husbands family...I believe that very soon she will have a family of her own to look after. There is no news on the baby front. I had to take provera in order to have a period after 4 months of nothing. I began the leterozole 6 days ago. It is the first time in a long time that my temperature has been up...so maybe this drug will work. I am trying to keep positive and not think about it. I have enough things to worry about and keep occupied with then to dwell on a baby that does not exist yet.So here I sit, still in grief and childless