Why can't I just cope and be happy for at least one week before more "good news" comes my way? On top of my XSIL getting married...there is my friend who never wanted to be a mom is now pregnant. Instead of telling me months ago I get a fringing invite to her baby shower. I know that she will be a good mother, but I am already feeling low and knowing that we have been trying for years really bits...I can not really speak to anyone about this because they give me that "I feel so sorry" attitude and I really do not need that. I want validation that I will have children that I given birth to. I am still waiting for my period, it has been 2 months...I really need to see if the leterizole works. writing in this journal really helps calm me down. all i really need is a good cry.